I really don’t know how to describe how painful it is to be 21 and the furthest you’ve ever been is second base with some random drunk chick (who was taking advantage of you) freshman year (and that there have been so many that you’ve thought reciprocated feelings and never were going to). To never know what it’s like to have another person of opposite sex want to even think romantically of you. The loneliness has become debilitating. And the knowing of disappointing your family adds even more on. Goddamn I’m so fucking alone.